Ryan’s Birthday number 26. Is this number of significance? Today it holds a lot of meaning since specific numbers have been intensely in my mind ever since Ryan left us. I am not sure why. I guess it is the permanence of his departure coupled with trying to hold on to any signs he sends me. These signs always happen to include numbers. I see them on license plates, billboards, hotel rooms, buildings, stores, clothes, student lockers, in clouds, magazines, even trucks passing by…you name it…special numbers just appear. I also am reminded of the present date, or a date a special event occurs or even the time I look at the clock. This repeatedly has been 4:26 either a.m. or p.m. since 4/26/09…Ryan’s Angel Birthday. Seeing these numbers makes me smile as I feel Ryan’s presence all around me.
So on Ryan’s 26th birthday, I reflect on the number 26 as being one of my significant numbers. Other special numbers include my lucky number 4, his lucky number 7, number 18 which is not only the age he left us but his birthday (7/18), and finally the number 19. This number was said to be Ryan’s number by Teresa Caputo, the Long Island Medium. Ryan came through her at Constitution Hall to talk with my daughter, Erin. We later learned that this was the number on all of his sports stickers throughout his childhood room.